Orc attacks! Roll a 2D6 for evasion!

D&D is old school, I'm talking LAN party. Yeah, I'm a nerd, but who cares. It KICKS ASS! I can't wait til I get 7 or 8 computers stuffed down here...I can envision it already. Unreal Tournament, Warcraft, Rainbow Six, it'll be good. It's a shame it requires so much time and effort to get people to bring things over and set up. This time, I'm burning copies for everyone, so that should save some time.

It's hard to concentrate on this post, I'm watching the Flames game. Flames caught up with two goals 18 seconds apart. Good for them.

I haven't done economics in a while...but I've only got about 15 minutes left in the first module (out of seven). Mind you, I should review the whole module again before I even think about the first assignment.

I've gotta pick my sister up at the airport tomorrow morning. Well, noon is morning for me. It'll be good to see her again, I guess. Now I get to hear her depressed about her ex-boyfriend. Man, I hope I'm not that annoying to everyone I complain to.

The big thing on my mind is this LAN party. I hope everyone can come, I hope everyone can bring their computers, I hope all the computers can run all the games, and I hope that everyone has fun. Well, I'm gonna go watch the rest of the game, I really don't have as much to say as I thought I did.

Listening to... Detroit @ Calgary, second intermission
Link of the moment... The catalyst of my plan

The cheapest way is the worst way.

Once again, I wasted $15 by trying to make my own tshirt. I finally did the megaman shirt, but I did it awfully crooked. I swear to god that it was lined up when I put it on, but those assholes always look straight when you have it on the ground. Well, now I'm faced with a choice: wear my shitty crooked megaman tshirt, or buy another tshirt, print another transfer, and NOT be a fuckhead and TRY this time.

At this rate, I might as well just start my own shop on CafePress and buy a shirt for $25. At least then the colour balance would look right, and it would actually not look like shit. That's starting to sound better as time passes, but $25 for a tshirt? Sounds pricey.

It's disgusting how much clothes cost, eh? Oh well, I spend more in a month on food, so I can't really complain. Ya need clothes to live (adequately), so I'll keep buying.

I bought a seg master system, but realized that it has no A/V cable, or power cable. It's gonna be hard to sell on eBay now. It came with at least ten games, and by the looks of it, I should be able to pawn it off for about $15 on eBay. Not too bad, I guess. That would at least take a chunk out of the Slayers boxset, and probably give me motive to buy it.

I'm gonna go watch Turner and Gen's show tonight, it should be fun. I really hate the atmosphere of bars though, the smoke kills me. Well, that's the price I pay for being a good friend. Oh, that and the cover charge.

Listening to... Shocore - Bonecracker
Link of the moment... Profit?

Hear me, oh faithful readers

Well that's just peachy! I've had tons of readers lately. I know of at least three people that read my last post, and at least another who asked for my site address. Good stuff! Now of course I have to post for all my readers :D

I downloaded Winamp 5, and I'm loving it. It's actually quite similar to WA2 in terms of adding files, making playlists, changing skins, etc. The main thing that I've fallen in love with is the ability to get live radio and television feeds. The tv feeds are always full or unavailable, so I've stuck with the radio for now. I've even stopped listening to my main playlist for now, since I get exposed to much of the same songs in these two radiostorm.com channels.

Why is it that I obsess over things? Just cause it gives me something to do I suppose. I've recently found myself infatuated with the Samurai Pizza Cats. I've even ran into a few people who love the show too. I don't think I've found anyone that hates that show yet, and John hates almost everything I like, especially anime. I've spent way too much time trying to find a decent wallpaper, but since those seem to be lacking, I may wind up making my own.

Slayers boxsets are going pretty decently on eBay. I'm not really that big a fan of the show, but good anime is good anime. Buffy the Vampire Slayer has some good prices on eBay as well, I'm not sure where to put my money. Oh, and in cause you think spending $100 on a boxset is a waste of money, let's look at this logically, shall we?

Logical argument #1
Slayers episodes: 25 mins each
78 eps in boxset, for $100
$100 / [78 * 25/60] = $3/hour
BTVS episodes: 25 mins each
22 eps in each boxset for ~$40
$40 / [22 * 25/60] = $4.36/hour

Most new movies: 2 hours, for $25 => $12.5/hour
Damn cheap movie: 2 hours, for $10 => $5/hour


Logical Argument #2
What's the price of convenience? How many of your favourite shows have been cancelled, or are on at an awkward time in the day? Now you can watch what you like, when you want it. No commercials, no missed episodes, no integral plotline details missed. You have the internet for news, weather, and everything else you need TV for. Just cancel your TV service and put your funds into things you want to watch.

Well, I suppose those are my two best arguments. Oh, and I'd like to point out that I used the bold tag way too often in this post. I apologize. It's a shame there's no underline tag.

I think one day, when I have no more content to make HTML for on the main page, I may construct shrines to my favourite cartoons (Beast Wars, Samurai Pizza Cats, Trigun), or at least the ones that don't have decent fan pages devoted to them.

Listening to... Hoobastank - Crawling in the Dark
Link of the moment... Please Sign, for MY sake!

Another late night

I had a good bunch of people over tonight. We talked a lot, played some street hockey, ate junk, watched a movie, and just generally had a good time.

Talking to Vicky last night opened up my eyes to a few things. I respect Vicky (and Agnes, and Laura, and John, and some others) because they don't need alcohol to escape from reality. People drink because they can't accept the problems they have. People go and get trashed to get away from their drab, trouble filled, everyday lives. I don't need that. I choose to accept my state of being, and I don't need to escape (through alcohol) from my life.

However, and I believe this applies to everyone, I do need an escape. My escape comes in the form of staying up late and connecting with people (namely my girlfriend of the time, or lately, Vicky). Other people go and drink themselves stupid to escape, I sit on MSN. When I'm talking to someone in a truly sincere conversation, nothing else matters to me, but the little box on the screen, and the music accompanying it. Some people promise themselves just "one more drink", and then they'll quit, but I promise myself just "five more minutes", then off to bed. It never happens. It truly feels like an addiction.

Does any of this make me a hypocrite? Am I just choosing my escape in another form, and chastising others for having a more physical form? I don't know, but I do know that I'll spend many more late nights talking to people, limiting my sleep and thus hindering my ability to face the problems in my real life.

Person A (male) made some comments tonight that I felt were kinda rude about person B (female). It's one thing to think someone is attractive, but there's a rather distinct line between commenting on someone's body and being disrespectful. I think A crossed that line. In all fairness, I should have stuck up for B's character, but what can I say, I'm not a do-er. What A thinks isn't really all that important, and B still has every ounce of respect I always had for her. Fuckin' eh.

Once again, I hinted to Victoria that I feel we really could make something with the two of us, once again she brushed it off, and once again we still remain very bonded friends. It's really a catch 22 I find myself in. On one hand, I have this attraction for her that I've had for years, and I mean
years, that I've been trying to act upon for so very long. She certainly fits the archetype of a girl I'd date. However on the other hand there's the immense respect that I have for her and for our friendship. On this hand, I also realize that nearly every other girl who I've felt like this for has gone through a relatively bad breakup with me, and is no longer on talking terms with me. It would be selfish and stupid for me to want to throw away everything I have for some undetermined length of happiness. Quite the pickle indeed.

Time for some sleep, hopefully. I'm pretty worn out from hockey and such.

Listening to... Joe Satriani - With Jupiter in Mind
Link of the moment... My new desk

Hafstok finally up?

Hey, I finally caved and uploaded all the progress I have so far. I'd say most of what I have looks really well done. The only real new thing there is to look at is the pictures section, but it's the most entertaining by far. If anyone doesn't want me to post their picture or name on my site, then please tell me and I'll either convince you to let me, or take it down. It would be a shame, since everything is so even and lined up right now. I also never knew that I had as many good girl friends as I do male ones.

I need some ideas for t-shirt transfers. I bought them, and I have shirts, but I don't really have anything I'd like to put on them. So far I'm thinking of putting a Maximal symbol on one. I'd like to put things that don't require you to think. No reading. Just nice, simple, one colour type things.

The first Calgary game is on right now, but only Saskatchewan and westward get to see it. The rest of the games are played here, although some are cut off for the first hour.

I did the first chunk of economics today...it's very confusing, and I think I forget most of the terms already. The prof is hard to understand, but I should be able to drag my ass through the course.

I might consider getting a professional host for my site, if I get something to show the world. The images I put up seem to load slowly, even for me. Once everything loads up though, it looks nice. I would really only need the hosting for more space, I only have 10 MB with Waterloo right now. I could convince some Lakehead student to let me use theirs, or for that matter, I could use other people's waterloo accounts to just hold videos.

I don't know what to do now, no one's on MSN. To me, MSN is like knowing who's sitting next to their phone. I never phone people because I don't know if they're available or not, but if someone is on MSN, it's like saying "phone me". I suppose setting your status to away is like having an answering machine, then.

Listening to... Toronto/Philly game 1
Link of the moment... Red Meat comics

Title?

What to say. The fan on the side of my computer is excruciatingly loud. It doesn't even seem to have cooled anything down much either. It's just good for the lights. I'll probably disconnect it once again, it's really annoying me.

I got my economics stuff in the mail today, and checked out the cd. It doesn't look like much fun, and I have a feeling I'll wind up forgetting about the assignments until after they're due. The prof seems to have a thick accent, but I'd rather have cd lectures that are hard to understand than no lectures at all.

I've tried dubbing this four hour tape for the third time now, hopefully the last time I have to let it run through. After that, there's another 3 hour tape, and about another 2 hours of miscellaneous stuff.

Laura keeps popping on and off sporadically, and I swear I haven't actually seen her sign on more than once since I got back. She always signs on when I'm away, and I don't notice til her status is away or busy. Maybe she's avoiding me out of fear? Who knows.

I find myself bored today again. Turner wanted to jam, but we lost contact. I should get out of the house, but I'm just so tired all the time. Too damn lazy to actually call anyone or do anything.

I got a haircut today, and I really would have liked it shorter on the sides and back, but it will do until June.

Listening to... Rise Against - To the Core
Link of the moment... NCIX - shop here if you need ANYTHING computer related...they offer the best prices I've seen on just about everything

Just a song

Just a good song to follow up my last post.

Catch 22 - Leaving

I'm leaving here today
I'm gonna go real far away from here
I'm gonna find a girl like the one I met in high school
But she's not gonna get away this time
I'm gonna keep her by my side
Not gonna lose my grip on you
I'm gonna somehow make it through this time
Not gonna fuck up like I did back then
Maybe I'll even fall in love again

And when I try to make things right
I always seem to lose the fight
Can't seem to hold on to my life
So I go on through the pain
That's why I'm leaving here today
Won't make it any other way

Cigarettes & sleep
are the only things that keep me from losing my mind
maybe in time you'll know that
Without you I am nothing
I have always acted blind
I'm never coming home because you left me all alone last night
and you never even showed up in the morning
And so I try to find a way to hold it in
I guess you win this time
Good friends are hard to find

And when I try to make things right
I always seem to lose the fight
Can't seem to hold on to my life
So I go on through the pain
That's why I'm leaving here today
Won't make it any other way

I'm leaving here today
I'm gonna go real far away from here
I'm gonna find a girl like the one I met...



Vicky's taking off for Vancouver in a few days. Good for her to get away from it all for a while, but I'll miss her. She's a great friend. It's a shame I don't get to see more of her, both in person and on MSN.

Jeez, I thought this blog would help me write things on my mind before I forget them, but I still can't remember anything. Oh well, I should try to sleep soon anyways. I need a shower.

Listening to... Bad Religion - American Jesus
Link of the moment... Ebaum's World: Collection of hilarious videos

I can't get back into my rut

Man, I really hope I don't start staying up until 2 AM regularly, or 4 like last night. I really can't let myself start waking up at 11 again, it's a terrible habit and it puts a hamper on the day.

Sheesh, I still miss Agnes like the dickens. I had a girl that was perfect for me, and I threw it away. Well, the important thing is I'm still having trouble getting over her...oh wait, no, that's terrible, isn't it? Well then the important thing is that she's been seeing one of my friends for longer than she was seeing me...oh wait, still not it. Then the important thing is I haven't talked to either of them since I heard they were dating....DAMMIT, does anything good come out of this for me??

Yeah yeah, I'm bitter. It's not that I really don't want to talk to either of them, there's just a few things that I'm scared of. The last time I talked to Agnes, I got burned, and I don't plan on striking that flint anymore. Plus, the fact that deep down, I KNOW I'm still morbidly in love with her, and I can't bear to see her with someone else, especially the guy that she referred to as a jerk so many times. I wish I had counted the number of times I said to myself, or to anyone else, that they would eventually start dating.

I really should get some food in me, I'm going to be jamming for the first time in ages with Sheena and Veebs. Besides, I forgot what else I was gonna say.

I'd like to give a shout out to Vicky, G, and Sheena, who hopefully have decided to join the crowd of people who read my blog more than once a month!

Listening to... Three Days Grace - Scared
Link of the moment... Calgary Flames, ready for the Detroit Red Wings

Oh yeah, THIS weather

Well, I think I'm unpacked for the *most* part. I've still got a lot of work cut out for me down here, but most of my clothes upstairs are hung up. I've still got a lot to clean up, and while I'm at it, I'm thinking I should re-re-re-organize the cold room. It's always messy.

NHL 2004 looks pretty good from what I've seen, but I haven't had a chance to actually play a game. The hockey game last night kept me up until 3, and unfortunately it was all to see the Flames lose. I'm sure that Adrian had a heart attack on some of those plays. That must go down as the best game I've seen in the series.

This computer desk is really a pain. It shakes when I type, and there's next to no room on it. I'm thinking I might actually take my dad up on his offer to buy a new one for the corner, but at the same time, I really only have to put up with it 1/3 of the next four years. There's no good place to put one of the surround speakers, as I had feared, and the other one seems too far above my head to be doing a very good job.

I guess I should elaborate on a bit of my last post just a bit. Renee is a girl that I was friends with way back in the day when I was living in Marathon. I remember nothing about her whatsoever, but I know in both of my dreams that it was her. Weird, ne?

I haven't seen many people yet. Everyone seems to be studying for exams. Well, at least I know Adam should be free! There are so many things I wanna get out of the way: unpacking, cleaning up the wires on my comp, backing up my videos, playing NHL 2004, hitting up the town with friends, and getting the website updated. Hopefully I'll be able to find the time to finish all of that in the next few weeks.

Well, for the time being I'm just gonna wait for spaghetti to show up. I haven't eaten all day.

Listening to... Iron Maiden - Powerslave
Link of the moment... Home

Back at home, and missing seclusion

Well, I'm back home again, and already annoyed by Grant's messiness...but I guess it's still good to see him again :P

Before I forget, I'd like to state some stats for future reference: dreams about Nathalie: 3 dreams about Renee: 2. I figure they're both enough of a frequent event now, that I should keep track of the actual numbers to see how crazy I am. This time I broke into Nathalie's house, but she seemed happy that I had done so.... :S

I've got BOTH of my computers set up now, and dad's computer was STILL being used when he came down here! Man, it really doesn't matter how many I have, does it?

I bought Kill Bill and NHL 2004 today. I'm installing NHL2K4 on my older computer as we speak, and adding to my blog before I forget to. I couldn't get a hold of Adam earlier today, but I'm sure I'll see him tomorrow. Hmmm, I think I'll post my shopping list since I'm here. Twist-ties, pop, ...well I guess I'd just really like those twist ties to get these cables out of the way.

I've got it set up now so i can tape TV onto my computer :D I have a feeling I'll have my 120GB hard drive filled up in no time...now if only they had good shows on, eh?

Ok, I'm gonna maybe play some NHL and watch the Calgary game tonight.

Listening to... Grant play Vice City
Link of the moment... UT2K4 Demo

Disassembly is hard to do...oh, and so is breaking up

Well, my dad dropped off the ol' boxes today, and it's really hitting me now. I'm actually leaving tomorrow. It's weird how no matter where I am, I'm always leaving home. This place really does seem like my home now, I actually find it harder to think of sleeping in my old room than this one.

Well, I've got to disassemble my computer after I use it for some laundry folding tunes. Then I've gotta break up with Laura. Man, I really hate breaking hearts, it's terrible. I think I'd rather have my own heart broken than to hurt someone else. And yet at the same time I always like to believe that I should look out for myself first. It's funny how one person can say one thing, and mean another, huh? What's that called? Oh yeah, I'm a big fat hypocrite.

For some reason, Quentin Tarantino was a judge on American Idol last night. What a guy. His movies should do well since the DVD release of Kill Bill Volume 1 coincides with the premier of Volume 2. I'm thinking I might work that out to my advantage, and pull a Lord of the Rings style Tarantino-fest. I gotta expose my friends to the genre, it'll be good for them. Maybe a movie date with Vicky? Haha, look at me scheming already!

Well, I'm going to go unload my laundry, and the next time I post, I should be in Thunder Bay!

Listening to... Catch 22 - It Takes Some Time (live)
Link of the moment... Something I don't need to know for four and a half months

The Sands of Time, for me, are Running Low

Well, it's about 48 hours until John's gone from Waterloo for four and a half months, and probably about 72 hours until I can say the same for myself. Time is really winding down here. Adrian's room is pretty well packed up, it was weird to see it so bare.

Tuna salad and gingerale don't go well together. The fizz just fizzles when it hits fresh mayo. It seems to go rather well with Mr. Big bars though.

I've neglected reading Alice's adventures in Wonderland lately. I guess it's a combination of the website, the video games, and the studying that tend to eat up all my time. It's quite the messed up book. I really have no idea how Disney managed to make a coherent movie out of it, it really has no plot or flow. Alice has no backstory whatsoever, other than the fact that she has a cat and a few dumb friends. Still, it's interesting enough to keep reading. At least then I can say I read a book recreationally.

Well, I kinda feel like playing Scrabble again. I remember it was quite fun the day we brought the board to Seattle's, and played upstairs. That was the first (and likely last) time I ever unloaded all seven tiles (mind you it turns out I didn't even spell the word correctly, but no one challenged).

I really don't know what I'm going to do when I get home. I'll be bored soon enough I guess. There's really not much to do, but sometimes doing nothing with someone is great. I plan on going to Walmart or Future Shop right when I get home and buying Kill Bill Vol.1. Aside from Once Upon a Time in Mexico (UGH), it'll be the first movie I buy new from a retail place...unless we're counting my two Beast Wars boxsets, which I suppose we should. Well regardless, the point I'm trying to make is that there aren't many movies that I decide to buy brand new.

Coming back from my tangent, I don't know what else I could possibly to at home. I'm hoping to dust off the bicycle and using that at least once or twice, on a nice day before it gets too hot. I'm sure many a creature have made a home in the recesses of my bike. I guess I'll hit up the mall a few times, maybe the golf dome and....OH RIGHT! I've gotta go golfing this summer! Well, not GOTTA, but it's something I'm sure I'll wind up doing. Even though I tend to hate the game and the experience, once I realize I'm just there for spending time with my buddies and some sun and exercise, then I'll start enjoying it.

Is it cheating when I switch tracks just before ending my post so I can advertise a certain song? Well whatever, I highly recommend Blindside's "About a Burning Fire" to anyone who enjoys emotional vocals, interesting rhythms, and melodic guitar chords.

Listening to... Blindside - Eye of the Storm
Link of the moment... Blindside

Flames win, Calc loses

Well, the Flames had a real domination today. It was a great game (although it usually is when your team is winning). The refs seemed more or less fair and sober this time around. I guess I won't go into too much detail, cause if you saw the game you know more than me, and if you didn't you likely don't care much about it.

Calculus was not so much of a winner as Calgary was. There were some real bullshit questions, and I don't know how many of them I feel confident about. There were some questions that I plain old didn't understand, or neglected to study. Mind you, that means they should hopefully mark much easier, or curve it. More than likely they'll mark easier, since I think they don't often curve core courses. Another important thing is that I should have an 80 average for the year, if not the term, which means Queen Elizabeth will keep funding my education.

Well, I don't have much else to talk about today. I had some great Chinese food and I bought a cake, which I've eaten two thirds of. I played Scrabble against Laura, and proceeded to school her (although I must admit she did a very good job at keeping up...I just got some lucky plays).

Wow....I really have nothing to say, eh? Well, until next time then!

Listening to... Gorillaz - Rock the House
Link of the moment... Courtesy of Kenneth

d/dx (me) = screwed

Studying for calculus hasn't really gone as well as it has in the past. I feel like I just haven't absorbed anything from it. All I can really hope for is that it's an easy exam, and that they don't ask much of the stuff I can't remember. I've had no motivation to study today, so I only got about two hours done today. Even a lot of the stuff that I spent over an hour doing practice problems on doesn't seem to have sunk in very well. And I think there's still stuff that I haven't studied yet. Let's hope I can wake up early enough tomorrow to get something productive done, ne?

John's still not back yet, which likely means that he took the late flight back, and he'll be barging in at 1 or 2 AM. Which all means yet another terrible supper, by myself. Well, just another week of cafe food, I guess, which is a curse and a blessing.

It's hard to say if I like living in Waterloo more or less than living in Thunder Bay. I can't say I've made many friends down here. In fact, Adrian, G, and Laura are likely the only ones I'll miss, and I tend to see the latter two on MSN more than in person. What I'm really gonna miss is the freedom. Well, enclosed freedom I guess. In residence, I'm free to go get meals whenever I want, and with other people for that matter. That helps a lot for someone as indecisive as I am. I usually neglect eating at home since I never want to make anything, and I'm too stubborn to drive somewhere for food by myself.

Another thing I'll miss is freedom away from my family. Gotta love them and all, but it's nice to just have a space to call my own. And I think the one thing I'll miss quite a bit is not having to be a taxi. I don't really like driving that much. I only drive because I hate it less than being a passenger. It's all such a waste of time. With all of my friends here, I'm just a few minutes away from being with any of them, and doing something nice and simple. Back home, it's impossible to have a good time unless we go out and waste money. I don't like going out for coffee, I don't like going out to see a movie, and I don't like taking half an hour or more to pick someone up so we can do nothing until we decide to pick someone else up, or decide it's time to drop everyone off (usually rendering me busy until 2AM).

I really have no idea what I'm going to do now. I still can't study, I don't really feel hungry enough to go out yet, I've tired myself of FF9, I've slept most of the rest of the day away, and I have no content to add to my website. Looks like it might be a good dose of guitar and television.

Thanks for reading, Kenneth.

Listening to... Red Hot Chili Peppers - Castles Made of Sand
Link of the moment... Turner's site

Running on half a tank

Playing starcraft til 3, and waking up at 8....that works out to...5 hours of sleep? Egads! Well, that's a lie. I tried my damndest to snooze until about 9:30, if I collect correctly. Regardless, I'm not too bad. I usually find myself just as tired after 12 hours of sleep...just not quite so nauseous.

I actually went to get help from my prof today, and I guess it was worth it. A lot of the stuff I either figured out as I was asking him, or it was trivial and I just didn't notice. I've done a fair share of studying today, simply because it's the last day my prof has office hours, and I felt bad for him sitting there all day with no one needing help.

My computer has been giving me troubles, further helping my study ethic. I guess I won't bore you with my jargon, but long story short, I can't seem to use my USB ports anymore, and I get a clicking noise through my speakers every few keystrokes.

I think I can now say, without hyperbole, that my website is a million times better than it was two days ago. All the images are now at their best quality, so I have a bit of a trade off in that it is a little larger and slower to load. I'm not so worried about the loading time, it's the bandwidth it'll create that worries me. I may one day wind up buying hafstok.com and getting some good hosting. Then again, hafstok is a word I made up on the spot and has no real meaning whatsoever. I realize now it's also something I would name a band.

I wound up watching "Genius" on John's tv today. Oh man, I've never seen a movie that was so terrible and good at the same time. Regardless, I couldn't change the damn channel and wound up watching most of it. I'd like to go on record saying that Emmy Rossum is a very attractive girl. She's right up there with Emma Watson, but moreso cause I'm less likely to get arrested for pedophilia if I slept with her.

I'm not sure if having sporadic posts like this are better than having one solid post on one topic, but this is likely how I'd write an email to one of my friends, which is how I want this blog to come across. I really could go on much much more on any of these topics, but I don't think even *I* would wind up reading it all.

Listening to... Japanese/American Hardcore compilation on my minidisc player
Link of the moment... Man-Cow Love

New design well worth the turmoil....barely

Well, after melting my eyes for yet another day in front of my computer, I finally have something to show for it. It took me hours to get some of the fancier things done in Photoshop, since I'm such a wad at using it. I'm never gonna figure out how to do anything decent in the program. I fluked out with everything I did today.

Since there's no point in linking it twice, it'll just be my link of the moment. Oh, and there's no content or links at the moment, I just wanted to post the design for now. I hate viewing sites that are posted with bugs, so I won't update again until I have a page for everything (empty or not). If you see anything buggy, please take a snapshot and send it to me over MSN, I'm really not too confident about the images on the left hand side.

Oh, and I did make it to the cafe last night, but I couldn't find anything I really wanted, so I just came back and talked to Grant and Kenneth. Kenneth convinced me to download UT2K4 Demo, and it does seem great. I can't wait to play with him though, online games are so much better with people you know.

Well, I think I'm gonna catch a few z's, and then start on calculus review.

Listening to... Reverend Horton Heat - I Can't Surf
Link of the moment... Hafstok

Eyes burning with the fire of leisure

My head is on fire from sitting in front of my computer far too much for the last few days. It's all well worth it though. I spent a fair bit of today attempting to work on the website. I have a few ideas in mind for a layout now, but actually implementing it will take a lot of work, finding the exact sizes and colours and such.

As you should hopefully note, I make some small changes to the blog every time I post. I'm really only posting to make sure the new changes work. I now (hopefully) have the link opening in a new window, since that's fun.

I had yet another dream about that cute redhead last night...this time I was hitting on her in the cafe, and for some reason I saw Vicky coming into the cafe from a bus stop or something of the like. Then I tried to wave John over to where I was, but he didn't comply, at which point I said "man, even monkeys can be trained to respond to hand signals". Some guy laughed at that as I was walking over to John. Man, if only I saw Nathalie as frequently in real life as I do in my dreams, I could at least complain about not having the guts to talk to her, but I haven't seen her in months. Well it doesn't matter much anyways, since I'm leaving in less than two weeks, and I'll probably never see her again as long as I live.

Well, I think I'll see if they have any stuffed pretzels in the cafe, before it's too late...in fact I think they might be closing right now. Stupid blog.

Listening to... The Offspring - Gotta Get Away
Link of the moment... The cute redhead
Note: In retrospect, her hair isn't really all that red...but she dyes it.

Yet another creative vent in the works

Since I've got a blog that remains unlinked, and since I may one day want to show off some of my creative masterpieces, I've decided to start working on another personal webpage. The idea hit me when I realized I have my own ad-free space on the waterloo server. I'll post a link when it's at least decent, probably not until May or so when I have some content to display.

I'm also hoping on making some of my own music during the summer. That is, recording each instrument by myself and mixing it on my computer. It'll be a challenge since I'm so terrible at every instrument, plus the fact that I can never make a decent song from beginning to end.

I suppose I ought to clean up my room, and do something productive. Or I could just play video games on this messy desk. Yeah, I think I'll have to go with that. Actually I feel like working on my website, but I just don't have any good design yet. Well, until I have a topic to talk about, I'll leave the blog once again to go back to my lonely existence.

Listening to... The Prodigy - Poison
Link of the moment... Dave's Site HTML Tutorial

One is the Loneliest Number

Well, I've got nothing much to do today. I'm too stubborn to study. I walked to the campus plaza to get lunch since it was such a nice day. I was hoping to buy a cheesecake, but the store I buy them from had none left. After that, I played quite a bit of Final Fantasy 9, and now I'm here, updating my blog.

I'm a very co-dependent person. Now that John, G, and Laura are all home until Monday, and Adrian is studying like only an engineer knows how, I'm left with nothing left to do, and no motivation to do it. I know that in this situation before, I skipped lunch because I had no one to go with. I hate doing things in large groups, and I can't do anything by myself. I always need just one or two people to do things with. Tonight I'll probably wind up doing nothing with no one, maybe sitting on MSN waiting for my dream girl to add me to her contact list. I guess it's a good thing that I've started playing games again, that's about the only thing I can only do alone.

I don't know what I'm going to do for supper yet. I don't want to eat at the cafeteria, I don't want to eat alone at the plaza, and I don't want to order a pizza to eat by myself. Hopefully I'll think of something before it's too late to eat.

As you'll notice, I've added the following two bits of info at the bottom of each new post. I don't wanna look like a blogger wannabe, I just think it's cool when I see it on other people's blogs.
PS: If you have a personal site or a blog, please tell me and I'll be more than happy to link (and visit) you!

Listening to: Fool in the Rain - Led Zeppelin
Link of the moment: Final Fantasy 9 Message Board

First real post?

I'll try to keep this interesting, for the sake of the handful of people who might one day read this...
I'm sick and tired of people who think they can do whatever the hell they want. You know what I saw today? I saw someone eat a cookie in the cafeteria. I saw him finish the cookie in line to pay. I saw him pay for his dinner and make no mention of any cookie. Then I saw him sit down with a bunch of Dons, the people who teach us to do what's right, and to live in an orderly manner.

Is it wrong to want someone to suffer for stealing a cookie? Because I want him to pay penance for his sin. But you know what? The only person who'll ever know is me and him. He'll never wind up paying anything, and I'll die with a complete disdain for him. And then it dawned on me: People who do bad things will never be punished. I can live my life as immaculately as I ever could, and still lead a less fulfilling life than someone who drinks til he pukes, fucks whores, and rapes his daughter. He could easily make more money than me, be happier than me, and live longer than me.

God, what I would give to be ignorant. I wish I could be a sheep. Ignorance really is bliss. Sometimes I wonder why I live the way I do...and I never get an answer. Only because it's the way I feel and the life I follow. But every now and then, I wish I wanted to steal a cookie.

I've actually been pushed to the point of creating a blog? I hope some cute girl hears my name somewhere and finds me....